Weight and Measurements and....PICTURES ahhhhh

Ok where's my wine!  It was so hard doing all of this this morning. As you can see from my heading, I weighed myself, took measurements, and yes I took pictures.  I took my pictures, and was looking at them on my phone, and i just wanted to cry.  I know it's all about how you feel, and loving your body no matter what, but I am genuinely disappointed in myself for letting it get this far.  I do try to love myself and the skin I'm in, but I just don't love my body and the way it feels.

Before I post my weight and stuff I do want to say how I've been feeling so far since starting back up on this fun journey of mine.  Before I bunkered down and was consistent, I was having headaches every. single. day!  There was a 2 month period where yea, I had a freaking headache every day.  It was getting to the point where I was going to go to the doctor to see what I could do to help this, and then I realized, DUH....they are most likely going to ask me what my diet consist of.  I can say now that I haven't had a headache in over a week!  That in itself makes me super happy, because mama ain't happy when she has a headache all the time.  Another thing I've noticed is my energy.  It seems like I have to put up a fight just to have energy and force myself to do stuff. I was getting to the point where I wouldn't even leave the house for a week at a time, because I just couldn't force myself to get up and get ready and walk out the door.  I've been active with my kid, and being more social with my friends, which is helping me a ton!   I'm finding it easier to stick to my healthy eating without any restrictions hanging over my head.  I finally feel like I found my balance with that, and it's helping me develop that healthy relationship with food....FINALLY UGH.

Before I post my weight I do want to say that before I had put that my starting weight was 212 lbs.  The next day I weighed myself and I was 216 lbs.....I figured 1 of the 2 was wrong (I was hoping the 216 was wrong)  But after a few days it was still 216, I need to change that to my starting weight 216 lbs.

So without further ado.......ick....haha am I ready for this???

Weight:  214 lbs  -  So I'm down 2 lbs from when I weighed last!  That's a plus :-)

Measurements:
Arms:  L- 14   R- 14
Chest: 29 1/2
Bust: 24
Waist: 38 1/2
Belly: 45
Hips/Booty: 45 1/2
Thighs: L- 28  R-28
Calves: L- 16  R-16

So the last time I measured was back in Nov. 2015, I've put on a total of 8 1/2 inches onto my body all over.  Something I'm working so hard to get back off!   I've gained 6 lbs since that weigh in as well.  It's not incredibly huge, but I sure feel it.

Now for the pictures.....this is seriously the hardest part for me, because I don't like the way I look, and when I take pictures I try to keep it from the neck up so people can't see my body.  But as usual, I have to be totally upfront with you guys and let you in on my journey from the beginning!

So here they are....big o' belly and all.
I'm planning on weighing in and measuring once a month.  I'm trying not to focus so much on that, because I can go crazy and just step on the scale every day.  So once a month I'll update you guys on my progress, and hopefully next month I will see an awesome change!

I wasn't planning on going to the gym today, but I'm thinking I'll go a little later to get some cardio in.  I'm feeling really motivated and in the mood for an elliptical session!  So with that I'll end this.  Until tomorrow ;-)

~Kylah~